AAJ DIL GUSTAAKH HAI

FIONA Crystal's Love

‎ AAJ DIL GUSTAAKH HAI,

Tere ishq main behaal hai,

Tujhe chhune ko betaab hai,

Tera ishq hi meri Sharaab hai,

AAJ DIL GUSTAAKH HAI 

Jab Teri Yaad aayi Toh...

FIONA Crystal's Love.♫♪ ♥ ♥¸¸.•¨• Palkon par aansuon ko sajaya na jaa saka.Uss ko bhi dil ka haal bataya na jaa saka.Zakhmon se bhara tha yeh dil mera.Ek zakham bhi uss ko dikhaaya na jaa saka.Jab teri yaad aayi toh koshish ke bawajood aankho mein aansuon ko chupaya na jaa saka.Kuch logo ko zindagi main bhulaya na jaa saka.♫♪ ♥ ♥¸¸.•¨• 

DEAD PEOPLE LIKE ME

FIONA Crystal's Love


Once i was alive &
I wished to live life..
I used to have fun
from my pain i never used to run.


I used to care about me so much
& i used to love myself so much
I used to trust evryone a lot..
& i used to live evry moment & evry thought


I had a lot of dreams
To do this &
to do that thing


Then slowly i became so alone
No one understood me.
Yeah! not even a single one!!


Suddenly i saw grey clouds
& the weather turned all Gloomy
the lightening sounded so loud!!


i didn't even realise
& right before my eyes
It went so dark..
& Then the lamp went off..


To save myself from darkness
I forgot i always feared...
The Ghost of guilt n regrets..


I was so foolish
I thought i was saving myself
& i started running down the Hill..


then i fell & got my heart broken into pieces
the pain was so unbearable 
then i went all numb


to get off my mind from my wound
I closed my eyes tight
When i got up i realised 
I was not the same 
& nothing was fine


I tried to Get up 
I tried to act Brave
But i suddenly realized
I was lying beside a Grave


I tried to read the grave stone
& on it this was craved..
"The One That once i Was"
may her soul rest in peace


Shiver ran Down my spine
when i realised 
the one lying beneath it 
was no one but me!!


Then i looked around
There were other graves as well..
All of them read..
Wecome to the numb but painful
WORLD OF DEAD!!

If someone could hold me tight

FIONA Crystal's Love


Life so Gloomy
I feel so lonely
I wish...
If someone could hold me tight
& just tell me its all gonna be alright


U trust people 
U care about their feelings
What they do for u
is that u need to think of ..
& then u realize no one is worth it.


Its all so sad 
Every one is so bad
The experiences I have..
nothing is right in me 
& i am completely dead




Its so painful
That i don't Hurt anymore
I needed u the most
But u left me dying
& walked pass my body


I wish now if i can ever live again
But still one day ..
I hope i will come out of ..
My Grave..

I just can't live without u

FIONA Crystal's Love


I just can't live without u
m just longing for Ur love.
But u never say a word
But u nvr say a word

u were my love 
u were my bestfriend 
& now we are apart ...
it feels so strange

I had made u my world
I just fall in love
I shared wid u my feelings
But now there are tears all over

u were confused...
u kept on thinking
if u love me
or u love me not

for u ..it was neither about if its right
nor was it about if its wrong
it was all about..
If u should love me
or u should not

One  day u said u love me 
very next day..u said dat we r just friends
Never ever u realized..
U were mocking my thoughts
N u were playing  with my feelings.

I still remember ..
its was Raining that day..
& i was looking down fron the balconey..
&  then u came..

How can i forget that purple t-shirt
that u wore dat day
Suddenly we came so close
& then all the Hell broke..

I was never the same after that
U made me feel guilty
& u moved away...
I still have that question.
was that all my fault??

U left my in tears..
u left me in Pain..
Never ever u realised..
U have set me up in flames

I was so alone 
I am still so lonely
there is no one to understand me ..
& i don't want anything else

As is u give a damn..
& why will u ever care
I guess Those were my feelings
I shouldn't have ever shared.

Something has died inside me ..
& i Feel so numb
No one can ever ease my pain..
they can only make fun.